Last night I had the most frustrating dream. I dreamed that I was trying to find the perfect outfit to wear to an appointment that I had. The closet that I was choosing out of was probably the size of my great room. There were many many choices, dresses, skirts, blouses, levis - whatever you might want for any type of occasion. I couldn't find anything to wear and time was ticking. I tried on many things and put together many combinations but nothing was quite right. The appointment time was approaching. I went to another closet in an adjacent room still nothing right for me. The appointment time had now come and I was in a panic. I finally just put on a pair of kaki's - which had a stain, were too tight, and too short - and I went to my appointment late. Horrible.
I share this because as I have been thinking about that dream today, I realize it is what I have been feeling as I try to make decisions for my family. There are many decisions I have to make for my children all of the time and they are counting on me to make the correct decisions for them. My children trust me. What I realize now is that there are many different outfits I can choose from, but not all of them are going to be right for me. I also cannot just be set on one outfit excusively because it won't be right for every occasion. I might not be comfortable with my decisions all of the time. In my dream, I ran out of time and I took the easy way out - comfortable kaki's - and it ended up horrible. Sometimes I just want to take the easy road but that might not be the best one for me.
In reality, my closet is quite small and I don't have very many outfits to chose from but I do want to look my best. I don't have to make all our life decisions right now - just pick the right outfit for today.
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